I remove my veins. I had this moment, caught between life and death. It was a beautiful thing, its right in front of me. It all reminds me of what I had, what i loved and how I failed. I know the sickness all too well. Tuck me in and leave me to die. The endless grey. I'm choking on every breath I take. My soul is too weak to swim. In these shallow waters. The endless grey. I'm choking on every breath I take. Nails buried deep. So beneath my skin. Leave the open wounds. For the cancer to break in. Bury my bones. Deep beneath the soil. Let me sleep peacefully in hell. Take my body away for my soul to escape. Will you lift my lungs, will you hold my hand. Its such a fucking shame that i feel so numb from all the blood I am losing biting my tongue. The flames keep building up as visions fade away. Led astray by the broken will. Keep following skipping cycles again. Skipping beats and losing touch. I keep grinding my teeth until the whispers fade away. Scatter my ashes across the earth let the soil swallow me whole. Piece by piece ingesting me. I've given in to my weaker half. One day when the view becomes blurry the clouds will take you in. When you're caught in the grey with me.